Stevies Birthday & Vector Art :)

Twath Stephens 22nd birthday yesterday and him, Leah & Lew came to mine which was rather fun :) Had chippy chips n curry, then about half an hour later we ordered pizza mmmmm yummy Also watched 28 Days Later, good film :) Can watch it a millions, it will never get old.

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Annnnnd, I've finally finished Leah, Rox & Claires early christmas presents!

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I'm quite proud, they turned out better than expected :) I am gonna try n make some more soon too for other people, and I might try and make a mass collage one of all my friends soon too, that will take a while to complete though! lol

Dean suggested I make an animation of them transforming from photo to vector, so here it is... (pls be patient! - they will take a while to load!!)


This one is pretty accurate :) Although I haven't shaded our skin, I did do it, but when it was finished I decided it looked better without lol


Claire looks perfect, but mine isn't so accurate. When i made the cat nose the real size it looked silly lol Oh and obviously i couldn't do the net properly on my top.. i'd be there for years

And thats that for another day :)
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Hmmmm

Think I might start working on a 'what I have to say to people' post. I loved doing it last time, its a way of gettings things out of my head and saying them to people, without the whole load of confrontation and convosation be it good or bad lol. Also this way I have the peace of mind knowing that the person might read it. I'm not gonna finish it any time soon though, I'll wait until I finish uni for xmas in a week :)

Also I'm very tired, and dissapointed that another day has went by and STILL NO TRAVIS! :( Come on Rikki don't make us wait too long haha ♥

Christmas :D

Oh and its probably worth noting, It started out as me just messing about then changing my mind.. but anyway, I'm currently in the middle of making something for Leah, Roxie & Claire for christmas, and because I've enjoyed it am probably gonna do the same (if i can) for Stevie & Hayley too :D ♥ xx

Another stupid tuesday..

I wish tuesdays didn't exist :/
Finally got that stupid Personal development presentation over and done with today, and just my luck as I was talking I said skill wrong, I said 'skwill' lol So for the rest of my speech I was trying not to burst into laughter.. not good :P When personal development is over forever I'll be a happy person.

So anywhos, go home and have some bacon & sausages only to find that the sausages aren't fresh and now I don't feel well GAY.

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But lets not talk about tuesdays any more.. lets talk about the past week :D
I am certainly not one for romantic films, i like action, sci fi and comedy, period! but on Sat I got sky player on my Xbox *free movies when i want :)* so i thought why not, lets see what all the fuss is about, i'll watch Twilight.

Alls i can say is.. mmmyessum :) haha meesa loves Edward Cullen :P I wish Dean was a vampire lol oh well :P

Its weird though, Robert Pattinson who plays Edward Cullen isn't even that nice in reality, i mean hes nice.. but not *that* nice, its his character and the way the story is which makes people like him so much. I found out Leah likes Jacob, eeeeew, hes a dirty werewolf haha Thats how you know Leahs not a gothgirl at heart :P

Righto, I'm off to do some Uni work now till mummy gets in, then we're going to the new Tesco weee
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The Jeremy Kyle Show

Today I went to see the Jeremy Kyle Show, T'was awesooooome! :D

Had to be awake at 5.30 which was a nightmare, but when we *eventually* got there we were brought in to the studio, which looks ALOT smaller than it looks on the tv

We saw 3 stories, first was about a woman who had cheated on her bf, and got pregnant, then there was lie detector results for a man who had supposedly cheated, and then finally DNA results for a woman who had cheated on her ex 21 times! but she was trying to prove her ex was her babys father lol. Was really good, quite a bit of drama n_n

I am defo gona apply for more tickets for next year :) Jeremy Kyle is totally different to how he is on tv, he was jokin n swearing n stuff lol

Also he spoke to me about me having blue hair! haha :D

Dunno when its gonna be aired, could be next week or could be in a few months, I will try to record it and upload it if I can :)

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P&D no more woohoooooo

Found out today that my worrrsssttt lecture P&D (ON A TUESDAY I MIGHT ADD), only lasts 1 semester, which means I don't have it anymore after the 7th Dec yaaaaaay :D

I can sit at home on crappy Tuesdays, and do fuck all :) (Hopefully anyway) lol

I must say, Friday 13th wasn't so bad at all :)

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Oh and P.S. I've taken out the dreads, gonna put em back in next week probs

New layout :)

New layout is up, hope y'all likey :)

I've also added a comment box too, over there ---------->
Leave me some love ♥

Ouchie, my head itches >.<

Yarp my head itches, think I'll by taking these darned dreads out soon, i love them but I don't know how anyone can leave them in for more than 2 weeks! Its a nightmare. Might take them out for a few days then put more in for Jeremy Kyle on Thursday :)

And in other news...Had a good day today with Leah♥

Went into Uni *late* today to finish stupid P&D coursework, and to my delight couldn't find my group anywhere. So I sat there for like 30mins on Facebook, and did a Flash tutorial, then it didn't work and i got angry but Leah saved me :)

Shes got conjunctivitus so we went to the Chemist to get her some ointment, then headed off to the Bakers Dozen for some Burgers (MLIA), then we went shopping in Matalan woowoo :)

Started my xmas shopping which is good, CANT WAITTTTTT.

Anyway, gonna go now to tidy my room then I think i'll give my Xbox some love, haven't been on it in a while cause the wires are all tangled. I should really set the Wii up again and get on the Wii fit to lose some weight.. maybe ill set it up b4 i go on xbox :)

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P.S. Yes I've just had so much fun making this post Rainbow colours.. i really am lame. I'm just avoiding the inevitable task of tidying my room lol :P

Muse, Dreads and Claire ♥

Yes... Muse was friggin awesome! :D I was a bit dissapointed that they wern't very interactive, however they have no faults what so ever for performance. They're perfect live, sound pretty much exactly like the Albums which is great :) And the set up, my god it was amazing. lasers, big structures, giant balloons which wer thrown onto the crowd haha I'm not dissapointed that I missed Bomfire night, and thats saying something :)

I've also put my dreads in *yay* Black and blue, looks great :) Had loads of good comments, and they're Scott approved aswell :D yaaaay haha. According to Scott they're the "Best Rei dreads ever" w00pw00p ^_^

Also, we went out for Claires birthday yesterday! :D Was aweeesoooome. Went to Claires house first for a lil house partay and had marshmallows with Chocolate fountain-ness mmmm ^-^ And then Sausage Rolls and Chocolate fountain-ness nnyyyeeeemmmm ^{*thanks Leah♥*}, and then about a bazillion strawberries whilst talking to Tet haha :P And I had lots and lots of Lambrini LOL
Got to meet Claires family too for the first time which was nice, they're all so lovely :) Also met lots of other new people too, now just gotta try n find them on Facebook which should be erm...fun.
Then we went to the Swan and bumped into Scott n Nikki which was good :D Annnnnd then off the K we trotted. Was an awesome night all in all ^-^ muchly fun. Claire looked like she had a good night too which I'm happy about :) ♥ and she liked her presents! Yay ^-^ I thought she might like em cause it's the type of thing I'd want haha :P
Oh and now i'll say something very depressing.... I've watched all the episodes of House now :( booohoooo. Gotta wait for the next episode like normal people do, its so weird i dont like it!

Muse tonight..

Meesaa cantaa waitaaa! :D
Gonna see Muse at the Echo Arena tonight, my first ever visit! I am actually rather excited about seein the arena too lol ^-^
Just washed my hair.. think I might put some synthetic dreads in.. we'll see.
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My Needle Phobia - The History

Just tried to update my needle phobia video on youtube but it seems the description is too long, so I'll write it here and post a link :P

Thought I'd tell people my story, seen as I've had a few questions about it.

Since I was about 13 I had this unrational crazy phobia of needles, I don't remember the exact point when it all began, i think it just grew over the years.
In school, I missed my TB jab because i was so terrified, I'm ashamed to say it now, but I actually took an overdose when we were given the letters about it to take home. I even missed the tester, which isn't a needle, just a small pin prick... even the thought of that made me sick.

Over the years the phobia got so bad it was impossible to function normally on a daily basis. When people pointed their fingers at me, I imagined they were needles, If a pen was held in a certain way, it was a needle, the worst was being poked in the arm.. i'd cry and cry uncontrolably :/ If a needle came on the tv, even for a second, i'd cry. I remember an advert for an anti-wrinkle cream, and the needle was on for literally like... 3 seconds if that, but everytime I watched tv I was scared that the advert would come on.

Even one thought of a needle and my whole day was ruined, it'd creep back into my mind hours later and I'd cry again, and when i slept i'd have nightmares. The most common was (sounds stupid now) needles being thrown at me, and also people coming towards me with needles and not being able to run away because my legs wouldn't work.. thinking back now I remember how terrified I was.. its unbelievable how i lived like that. I couldn't even visit a loved one in Hospital without constantly being on guard, looking on every shelf, at every nurse, and every counter to see if there was a needle.. I was even scared of the yellow disposal bins :/

I remember one thing that helped me control and comfort my anxiety at the time, and that was wearing long sleeves, and rubbing my arms as if i was cold. I felt even more safe if i was wearing my coat lol. After a nightmare I used to squish up into a ball under the covers, holding my arms and knees tight up high, and i'd kind of rock and sway a bit. Sounds like I was a lunatic I know, mental illness alert, but in actual fact I was just terrified that I would think about them again. I was frightened of my own mind, and I didn't want to go to sleep incase it happened again.

The realisation came that I needed help when I discovered I needed my tooth filling, I knew 100% I couldn't go in the state I was in, so i went to the doctors and they arranged for me to see a councellor.

6 months later, and i was there.. she delved deep down into my past, trying to find out why i felt that way and what had brought it all on.

The first few visits were awful, even though we didnt talk about needles, thats what I was there for, so as always, my day would be ruined. We discovered that its likely to be a long list of events from my past which had built up to make me think they were a bad thing.

The therapy began with looking at a series of photographs of needles, the first week I couldn't look at them, and I just sat them on my lap whilst we talked, the 2nd week I peeked at them, the 3rd week i looked at them all properly, and chose a favourite which was the least "scary" and then discussed why. the 4th week I took them home and scattered them around my house, in places where I would always see them (by the kettle, in the bathroom, on my desk etc) It was very hard at first, I avoided parts of my house, but by the end of the week I had became accustomed to them.

Then I moved on to videos, and my councellor had picked out a few which she felt wouldnt be too scary for me to watch. In all honest, at first I lied and said I was watching them every day even though I wasn't... i just couldn't bring myself to do it. But after a few weeks, i started watching it more, and then i searched on google for videos and pictures of needles. This was hard at first, as you can imagine some were pretty horrific and i cried as i did it, at times not even being able to see the screen because of the tears pouring out.

In our discussions, we discovered that looking and thinking about sewing needles didn't scare me, but thinking about seringes terrified me, so after a few weeks of watching videos, she brought in some surgical needle heads (the pin) from a nurse.

The first week I just looked at them in the wrappers, I didnt want to open them because I felt like they couldn't get me if they were wrapped up. I also requested that i keep hold of them or they stay on the floor, as i felt too uncomfortable with someone else holding them.

The week after I was feeling very brave, and we opened the packaging, and I actually held the pin. There were a few all of different sizes and widths. Strangely, i felt most comfortable with the small thick needle, my rationalisation for this at the time was (and i actually said this) if you slipped with the thin one its more likely to go through me. Makes me laugh thinking about what i said, it doesn't make sence.

After a few weeks of feeling the needle tips, I was introduced to the seringe part of the needle, which to my surprise looked nothing like i had feared. It was a needle for taking blood, which unknown to me had several different parts. I actually held the whole needle seringe n all, and carresed my arm with it.. terrified ofcourse.. but i was in control and was kind of coming to terms with the fact it could help me in the future, and does help millions of people around the world.

A few weeks later, for the first time in... possibly 5 years, i stood in a room and willingly watched a volunteer get her blood taken. She was ill and needed the blood to be taken monthly for tests. I cried and cried and pressed myself against the door, but we were in there for a good 10mins I'd say, and i eventually calmed down. The woman didn't look in pain, and she wasn't scared. She was actually talking to me as it happened, and she said it was fine.

The next week, my councellor had blood taken, and I sat next to her and watched. I felt very uncomfortable, but the nurse moved slowely and i trusted her. I bravely sta in the chair afterwards and the strap was put around my arm so I felt comfortable with it. I was unbelieveably scared even by this, my arms were exposed, and I didn't like that at all.

The week after she had blood taken again, i sat in the chair afterwards ready to have my blood taken, but i couldn't do it. My phobia kicked in, and i had no explanation for why i didnt want to do it.. i was just too scared. I was sobbing as I walked home, I felt like I had failed, I knew I needed to do this.

The week after, this video was taken, and thats the end of that chapter.

For anyone with a phobia, i do advise you get councelling, don't let it get as bad as mine was, its really not worth the hassle. A whole year of councelling, just because my brain thought of needles as a danger :/

I won't lie, I am still uncomfortable looking at videos of needles, and admittedly i will sometimes look away, but its nothing like it was. I've had 3 more needles since that video, and i've had my ears pierced too :) Although on my 3rd visit to the dentist, I count it as one but i actually had about 5 needles in one go to numb my gums. (I had to have the tooth out, i had an abcess which was about to break through my skin on my face... yeah that same old tooth, i left it that long haha)

Obviously, i cried uncontrollably on all occasions, but the last time at the dentist, i actualy didn't cry that much, I calmed down and felt more comfortable with it because I knew it didnt hurt, they pulled my tooth out and I felt nothing, thanks to them needles.

The fear of needles will never 100% go, but I can think about them and not care, no nightmares or anything. I mean come on my fave tv show is House, if any of you have saw that before you will understand what I'm getting at.... its needles galore!

Could this possibly be a "good" tuesday?...

Ackkkk Tuesdays suck :/ I'll be happy to get this one over and done with I tells ya that much!!

Gonna pick Dean & Lew up from rehearsals soon though, and then I'm gonna get either a KFC or a Maccies mmm :)

Naughty Rhiannon! Hungry Rhiannon! Unmotivated Rhiannon! Another-depressing-tuesday Rhiannon! :( - Gonna drown away my sorrows and stuff my face with fatty food.

I sure hope Dean stays at mine tonight, but ofcourse he won't.. its a Tuesday and nothing good EVER happens on a tuesday :/

P.S. Sorry if the last post still shows as Webdings, stupid internet doesn't work for me anymore.

Good weekend :)

*happy sigh* Had a good weekend :) Halloween Eve on Friday at the K was immense, we had a free ticket so dragged Lew along, n then met up with some peple there too. Twas pretty empty tbh, but was good cause we could move around and actually get served! haha My Hello Kitty costume turned out pretty awwwesoooome too ^_^

Saturday (Halloween) was pretty cool too, lots more people came though and everyone kept going missing! Rather annoying to say the least, also cause it was sooooo packed, we only ended up having like.. 3/4 drinks lol. My Chun Li costume was amazing, me & Dean (Chun Li & Ryu) went into the competition, got to the second round but that was it :/ Was cool though, didn't expect to win anyway, just thought i'd do it for a laugh :P haha We ended up losing most of the people we were with so me, Dean n Stevie got off at around.. half 3/4ish, and to our delight it was pissing down! lol Had to walk all the way to John Moores to get a taxi ¬_¬ eughhhh

Oh and Sunday! :D:D Luckily I wasn't hung over, and had a great time at Rikkis Baby Shower. Helen did such a good job! The games were fun, I won pin the dummy on the baby! haha Got me some fruit pastels ^_^ The ice pack game (can't remember the name) turned out to be a bit of a disaster tho :/ All the bags ended up ripping and everyone got soaked haha And the Pinata, bloody hell they're tougher than they look lol.
The buffet was yummy too :) Mmmm i want another one of Hildas cakes! lol

Anyways, I'm soooo tired, busy weekend, only just managed to upload the photos to FB lol!

Toodles peeps xx

P.S. I forgot to mention, I'm going to see Jeremy Kyle! :D They're filming on the 19th Nov so keep an eye out for me!! :)