Just a quick post/update :) Everything is great in the flat, its just a case of buying stupid things like bedside tables and curtains - unimportant stuff basically. I'm gonna write a full blog post another day to update on EVERYTHING thats happened since October.

Christmas was really good but weird haha Waking up and seeing Dean straight away was strange for a start, and then getting up and having breakfast and opening presents in our own flat.... just weiiiird haha.

Quick updates anywho ...

I have a hamster, shes called Chewy and her full name is Miss Chewbacca Evans-Carr haha :D
I have a new blackberry - the blackberry torch 9810 .. although my charger just broke GAAAAY
I've restarted my 365 for 2012, probs won't be able to finish it though since the world ends this year EUGH.
Ermmmm.... I'm soon to go Platinum blonde. I wanna do some sort of video diary of the process but we'll see
I'm workin in Asda 4 & 5 days at the moment, hopefully I'll get a proper contract soon :)
Ermmmmm.. Thats it for now

TRAAA LAAAA :)

Happy happy right now :) The flat is coming along nicely. Johns finishing up the painting in the next few days, Barrys put all the blinds up, we're getting a new sofa off Carl & Nat, and we ordered the carpets today :)

Colour schemes for the rooms:

Living room - Cream/Beige carpet, classic cream walls and 1 feature wall (yet to be decided, probably brown)
Hall - Cream/Beige carpet & Empress Green walls
Kitchen - Cream floor tiles (already there), classic cream walls & 2 red walls, wood furnishings
Bedroom - Black carpet, dove grey walls & 1 feature black wall with purple stuffs in
Spare room - Black carpet, white walls and everything inside will be black
Bathroom - We're gonna get slate tiles (probs Lino :P) but at the moment its blue with white walls

Also I have a pantry in the kitchen which I'll be painting once we're in there, and by the front door we have a recess which I like to call my Dungeon :P I'll be painting that and making it into a cloak room when we're in :)

Really getting withdrawl symptoms from not writing on my blog :( Its just so hard to find the time right now with only using Deans laptop.

Good news is upon us though :D.. Got a phone call from One Vision Housing last week, after LOTS of fucking about, the old tenants have now handed in the keys to our flat AND, yesterday a One Vision van was outside the flat all day. GOOOD TIMMMES. Soo, I'm hoping we'll be getting a viewing in about a week or 2.

Now for some bad stuff to talk about :( Today I'm getting a blood test for the first time since I had my councelling (video is on youtube). I had a needle when I had my tooth out, but it wasn't the same. I'm not gonna lie, I'm really really scared. I keep doing things which my councellor told me to stop doing as it doesn't help the phobia, but I can't help it :( I always struggled with having the inner part of my elbow and arm exposed, and today I can't stop twitching my arms. I'm actually struggling to type because my arms are extended. I must get over this, I can't let it control my life again :(

Fuck all has happened :/ I'm just plodding along, work, tv, sleep pretty much.

About the only drama I've had is losing my favourite (and only) lip bar. Just ordered a new one so hopefully it will arrive soon so my piercing doesn't close over.

Ermmmmm.. also Korn Again at the Krazyhouse was beyond epic. First time i've actually seen them and felt like I was at an actual gig and not just there to see my boyfriends band :) Good stuff.

2 days ago Korn Again played Gasworks Bradford again which was great as usual. The crowd wasn't amazing but I think it has something to do with it costing £4 to get in when last time it was free.. plus people could see and hear the band from upstairs anyway haha Then we stayed out for Wizzzzzzs birthday which was cool. Lots of drinks and strobes in a random place :P

Oh and can I just say, I love my baby Dean :) When i came home from work this morning at 6am, there was a big plate of Spagetti Bolognese waiting for me. IT WAS AWESOMMMMME. ♥♥♥

Oh and we're going to Chester Zoo on Thursday for Riks Birthday which should be cool. Can't wait to see Trav n Daisys faces when they see the Elephants and Giraffes XD

Well, my birthday bbq was brilliant :D Dean sorted out the food as always cause hes the resident bbqer :P and we had looots of drinks :) Lots of people turned up too but it wasn't too crowded like we were worried about. 20 people fit in the bungalow can you believe it!! haha nah we were in the back garden luckily :P LUCKILY the weather was perfect :)

Brilliant night and theres actually still quite alot of alcohol left so might have to do it again :P

Its just a shame my actual birthday didn't follow that pattern :/ Started off by getting some great presents off Dean :) A cat ears hoody and Dance Central xbox Kinect game, however we couldn't use the game because we didn't have a Kinect adapter. Soooo, we went to the Strand to buy a new xbox and trade in our old Elite. The plan for the night was to go to the Cinema and for a meal, with me Dean my mum and whoever else wanted to come, however didn't quite pan out! Dan got arrested for smoking/in possession of weed, and there were random strangers in the house cause the police had left them there (they're Dans friends, but theyr strangers to me). So I spent my birthday waiting in a fucking police station for Dan, and when we does come out, he had the cheek to just grin then walk away and not even say happy birthday or anything, he didn't even say hi.

Me n Dean ended up going for a meal alone anyway without my mum and then went to see Transformers which was good. Just a shame it was overshadowed by all the drama :(

I really don't know whats happened to him lately. In the space of only a month or two, hes been involved with the police on numerous occasions, had fights and lost his gf Mel (which I'm actually quite devastated about - shes so lovely and meeting her was the best thing that ever happened to him) If he carries on like this hes going to lose his job :/

Anywhooooo Sonisphere was awesome :) Bands were excellent and pics to follow! Unfortumately Miread (Jays gf) had toncilitus so couldn't really talk or drink so a mad one was off the menu, but we had a good time anyways :)

Righty, Dean will be home soon :) Oh last but not least, Deans got a job working nights, so we'll be working together :D Most people say they'd hate it, but i think we'll be fine :) We'll be on completely different aisles anyway and the only time we'll see eachother is at breaks or if hes walking past. Plus we'll save on taxis :) yaaaay

So much has happened since my last post lol

Well, I best start off with the most important. Pippin is still missing :( I just can't even begin to understand what might have happened to him. People say oh he'll turn up hes still out there somewhere, and then others say wouldn't you like to think hes still alive somewhere? Right now, all I can think of is that I hope hes been ran over and was killed instantly. I can't bare the thought that he could be out there lost, starving confused, cold. I also don't like the idea that someone has captured him and hes terrified, he was such a scardy cat and terrified of strangers. I don't know, I guess the best scenario would be hes been getting fed by someone else and decided to live there.

Anyway, if he is out there, I just hope hes happy and safe. I miss him so much :(

So yeah, since Pippins gone missing me and Dean have moved out. Well... ish. We're staying in Deans nans because shes not well and is getting looked after by his mum n Paul. Her bungalow was broken into a few months ago so we decided to stay here for a while so people don't get suspecious of the house being empty.

Its nice though, having our own place with all our own stuff doing what we want when we want.. well.. again thats ish haha. Deans a fussy bugger about things being tidy :/ lol Nemo is with us too. He seemed a bit bewildered being at home and seemed on a bit of a downer, and I was worried that the house might smell a bit like Pippin. So we decided to move him into the bungalow with us. We've been here about a month now n he seems really happy :) He loves the conservatory and loves all the attention hes getting. He actually jumped up on the roof yesterday which isn't good. Gonna havta keep an eye on him n possibly get him a harness from now on

Aaaaand, I got a contract with ASDA :) I work Thursday Friday and do Wed as overtime and 1 Saturday a month. S'allll good. Deans got an Occupational Health app on the 27th too so hopefully he might be back on nights soon too!

And finally, my birthday soon! woop :D We're having a lil BBQ next Saturday, then the following Tuesday is my birthday and me n dean are hopefully gonna see Transformers! Theeeeen on the Thursday we love for.. dun dundun duuuunnn SONISPHERE. Yahooo. Yeps we got our tickets :)

S'gonna be good I can't wait.

My little cat Pippin is still missing *sigh* Its been nearly 2 weeks now and no one has seen him. I've put posters all around the area, and I've rang all vets and animal rescue places, and even the council but nothing :( I just hope he comes home safe, or as horrible as it sounds, dead. I can't bare the thought of him being trapped somewhere scared and hungry.

I went for a viewing on a Bungalow today, its absolutely gorgeous. Big garden, with a shed and chair swing, big bedroom with a massive wardrobe included, massive conservatory which is basically a living room, and a front room which is a spare room. As soon as I entered and even as I talk about it now, I'm having ideas of how we could have it set up :( But with Dean on one day a week in Asda and me not being guaranteed a contract, we can't do it. I have enough to pay for the deposit, but we can't guarantee the payments to live on.

If Dean had accepted the 3 days in Asda initially or got different days off them, and I harrased them to see if they'd give me a contract, it might have been doable :/ *sigh*