Well...

Not blogged in a while cause my pc was bein a gay n wouldn't let me onto any websites! lol

Got my Halloween costumes sorted, on the friday I'm gonna be Hello Kitty, n on the Sat I'll be Chun Li Rei haha :P Gonna be goood I can't wait. Also got Farmageddon on Wednesday too.. shitting myself! lol

Erm... I had more to say but can't think what lol.

Oh well while I'm here..
Today i've eaten - 2 slices of toast with peanut butter, 6in italian subway with ham, lettuce, cucumber & lite mayo, tomato & bacon pasta with a bit of cheese & 3 slices of garlic baguette, 1 jam doughnut. Pretty bad really :S Alot of carbs there lol dangard.

Oh ye, had a bit of a worry today about Dean being in this new band and was a bit nervous about things taking the same course as last time, but I had a chat with him and we sorted it all out :) Luckily he understood why I felt this way and told me everything would be ok. I guess the best way to sort things out is too talk about it :)

"Envy is the most stupid of vices, for there is no single advantage to be gained from it." and combatting it feels great :) Thats how average my life is ♥

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen, Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss, Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen, Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust ♥

♥
Eine Liebe ein Versprechen
Sagte ich komm zurück zu dir
Nun ich muss es leider brechen
Seine Kugel steckt in mir
Eine Liebe zwei Pistolen
Eine zielt mir ins Gesicht
Er sagt ich hätte dich gestohlen
Dass du mich liebst
Weiss er nicht

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust

Eine Liebe ein Versprechen
Ach das Blut läuft aus dem Mund
Und keiner wird mich rechen
Sinnlos gehe ich zu Grund
Eine Liebe zwei Pistolen
Einer konnte schneller ziehen
Nun ich bin es nicht gewesen
Jetzt gehörst du ihm

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust

Roter Sand und weisse Tauben
Laben sich an meinem Blut
Am Ende gibt es doch ein Ende
Bin ich doch zu etwas gut

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust
♥

Weird feelings...

Talk about a blast from the past, I've just been reading Leahs old Livejournal posts from an age ago, and I must say, It didn't just back those happy memories, it also brought back many demons which I tried so hard to forget.

A long long time ago, Leah and I were like... jam on toast, chips and beans, apple crumble and custard, the bin and marmite, you just didn't get one without the other, we came as a pair. She was my best friend, and no one came close in comparison.

When mine and Deans relationship became serious, I made a fatal error.. I disconnected myself from life thinking nothing of it. I didn't just lose contact with Leah, and lost all my friends, and just went into my own little shell.

Naturally, Leah became friends with other people.. and it got to the point, were we didn't come as a pair anymore.. we didn't even come in the same category, we hardly talked. She found a best friend in Roxanne, who now I've came to love to bits myself, but at the time I didn't know her and all I did was see her as a threat.

Reading back on those old journals, it just reminds me of how much of a screw up I was. I should have been there, having a laugh, going out, just being a friend like everyone else. Instead I just.. let go of everyone I cared for and expected them to still be there when I wanted them.

In actual fact, which makes me feel even worse, I remember blaming every one else. I cut myself off, then when they all had moved on, I blamed them in my head, thinking they were the ones who left me, which obviously they would do if they thought I didn't wanna know them anymore :/

These are weird feelings right now :/ This was all in the past, I should be looking back, laughing and saying 'what was I thinking', but instead I feel.. angry for letting this whole shananigan occur.

- But then I think... everything happens for a reason. I have more friends than ever, I have my boyfriend of nearly 6 years.. Leah, my best friend and still, no1 comes close in comparison.. and I also have new best friends too who I love more than anything.

I think the moral of this story is, people are young, people grow and everyone makes mistakes, but it all happens for a reason, and I wouldn't be here today if it hadn't :/

I've been a happy bunny on the outside, but today has been the worst day of my life for about 3 years, and I have no explanation for why. Tuesdays suck.

Right now.

I think this is rather fitting right now...

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

Not had such a good day today :/

Today has just been...bleh :/

Early morning, uni was just.. a waste of time :/ It was so boring, in the lecture I was nearly falling asleep and it wasn't clear what we were even meant to do in the lab/tutorial. All we did was... basically, learn how to look if there are books in a library. My god I mean, do they think we're fucking stupid Eugh whats the point ¬_¬

Then when I got home, I had a ham sandwich... watched some House... fell asleep... woke up... ate my tea... and now I'm here. Tuesdays really suck, I want something to do, but I've no motivation to do anything.

On the other hand...

Liebe ist für alle da ♥♥♥

I guess thats the only interesting thing I have to say
Fin.

Babababababybel

Well, I did "alright" today, didn't scoff my face so its a start atleast. The only fatening thing I had was a scone and aboout 2 blocks of fruit & nut dairy milk lol :S

On to other news though, Dean has swine flu :( Went to his today n we were meant to clean Lizzys tank, but he said he felt really ill :/ So I went home anywho GAH! :( Not gonna see him for ages booooo. Well... til Wed haha

Anyway i cba today with this, I'm pissed off cause i've just spent the last hour looking for a suitable Chun Li costume, but they're all stupid :(
xxx

Ouchy >.<

Note to anyone taking Xenical Orlistat 120mg tablets (the 1s from the Doctors, not Alli - i dont no about them but i prosume its the same side effects), make sure you REMEMBER when you've taken them.. even if its just one! :(

I am weening myself back on em, so had 1 with breakfast this morning, but then completely forgot I'd taken one an hour later. **Damn my blasted memory** :/

So yeah, little ol' me thinks its ok to scoff all day! Last day then I'll diet tomorrow I told myself. So I binged on anything I could get my hands on all day! How stupid am i? :/

Im ashamed to say this but.... 2 slices of toast with peanut butter, ready salted walkers crisps, fudge bar, wine gums, half a sayers chicken fajita sub, a traditional pasty from sayers, an iced ring doughnut, chilli con carne with rice, a single kit kat, a packet of wotsits, a mars bar ice cream, 2 chippy spring rolls, half a small portion of chips from chippy

EUGHHHH what was I thinking?!?! :'( For the past hour I've had the worst cramps in my stomach ever, luckily because I took the tablet over 12hrs ago, I've been fortunate enough to not have the dreaded Orlistat side effec, attack of the killer oil. THANK GOD.

I will NOT be making the same mistake again! lol From today, goodbye Chippy, goodbye Sayers, goodbye Greggs, goodbye Chinese food, goodbye crisps, goodbye chocolate, goodbye... McDonalds :'( goodbye KFC :'( I'll miss u all haha...... Hello new skinny Rhiannon :D :D :D

Well.. watch this space. I can guarantee I'll have atleast one of the above 2moro though.. damn me and my lack of motivation! :/

I'm going to bed now to watch House :D
xxxx

My new new new rocks and glasses ♥

Good day people of Azeroth,
My new new new new rocks and glasses have arrived today! woohoo :D

Heres my new rocks:

I know, kissalicious aren't they!! ^-^ hehe

Oh ye.. photo bring back memories anyone?.. Lets go back say hmmm.. 4 years ago? lol

Ahhh my beautiful New Rock 373's, Platformed and Springed to perfection ♥

This little escapade seems to have formed a tradition.. maybe I'll do this for my Grandpa New Rocks and my Sella Dare boots.. we'll see :)

Anywhoooo, my glasses :D
They're from Glassesdirect.co.uk which i was introduced to by ze lovely Sarah! Its so cool, I chose 4 glasses and they sent me them out to try, and I can return em for free :)

Out of the 4 I ordered, only 2 of them are suitable unfortunately. Heres some pics of them:

Me with no glasses for comparison:


Cuba Libre


Daiquiri

Sorry I couldn't be bothered photoshopping these 2 so my skin aint perfect lol

Kamikaze
Just for the ol' shits n giggles :P

I think I'll probs go for the Cuba Libres, the Daiquiri frame is a bit too small so I can see it all the time. I'd love to keep the pink, but I would probs get funny looks in Uni haha

So thats all folks, I'm gonna go get into my pjs now, make a cup of tea & watch House in bed ♥ Sounds good to meeee :)

*Keeakiiii*

Howdy all,

Well as you can probably see, I have started uploading old blogs :) Goes back to 2004!! If you do read them, I'm sorry.. I was only 15 afterall :P

Had a fun night tonight, went to see a band called 'Drakes Rebellion' at the Zanzibar with Leah, Claire & Roxie ^_^ The singer is an old friend of Leah & Rox from college, so I thought ahh why not eh. You should all check em out on their Myspace they're really good!! :)

It was good to get out with the girlies, don't get to see them that often, and it was the first time we'd all been out together just us 4, twas nice :)

Oh yeah, might aswell put some random updates on here while i'm at it..

Went to Rhys' surprise 21st birthday party on Friday, t'was great had a good time. Andy Bev Scott Adam and Jay were there, and I don't get to see them that often so it was pretty sweet. Me & Dean had a bit of a falling out though which was gay but we've sorted it out now :) On the way home Scott n Dean ran into some trouble though which is sheeite :@ Scott got whacked n lost his lip ring! Some people can be right twats!

Then the next day I went to the Southport Firework Competition with Dean & Lewis, and Claire n Sean met us there :) Was great although we missed the first lot of fireworks unfortunately. Also Dean was on his bike, so we couldn't go in the Arcades or anything which was a bit poo but nevermind, I went on the Merry-go-round anyways with Sean n Lew so that was awesome :D

Oh Oh Oh Oh and I can't waiiiiit !! ^_^ Rikki, Deans sister, is havin a little babee boy called Travis! ^-^ Shes due at the end of November! I can't wait, I've been shopping already n got some goodies for him. Its gonna be weird havin a baby round at Xmas, I think its gonna be really good :D

And last but not least, Halloween soon!! I really regret not going out to the Krazyhouse last year, and since this is a year for change.. its happening :)
Hopefully Dean will be able to come, If he does I think we're gonna go as a couple and be in matching outfits. If so, I'm gonna be Chun Li and hes gonna be Ryu, should be great I rly hope he comes! :D And because its a Halloween weekender, I'm going as Hello Kitty on the other day! yaaay lol

Then the weekend after, we have Bonfire Night and Claires birthday! I'm so gutted, Muse falls on Bonfire night so I'm gonna miss all the good displays, I'm sure Muse will be worth it though. So we're going out for Claires birthday on the Saturday :)

Anywho thats all i can think of for now lol
Cheerio-pop x

Lalaaaa

I've just found out how to transfer old posts from other websites onto here, so I'm gonna start now :) Should be fun

Uni is going fine, still boring but ahh well. I can't wait for xmas now ^_^ ooooooh >.< I dunno what I'm gonna get Dean tho :/

Anyways.. yeh..
x