Shoes, Boots and Bags... A way to Reis he♥rt

♥Shoes & Boots & Bags♥
So, I've been looking at lots of shoes and boots because I'm still deciding on which to get off Dean for my birthday :) Anyways, I've realised that there are hundreads that I want will own before I die haha

When I get my own flat, I'm going to need a seperate room to keep them all in (Dean will not be pleased) :P

I've found some Demonia Cherry Concordes on Ebay really cheap, so I might bid on them just for myself :) I'm not massively keen on them because they have weird toes, but I think for the price I might just get over it haha :P
Then I'm thinking of getting Demonia 3 strap platforms off Dean for my birthday and then as a random surprise one day probably Sella Patent Thumpers :) ♥ Orrrrr possibly some Demonia Transformers but the platforms are REALLY HIGH on them! We'll see :)

I tried stretching my Sella Dares last week but it didn't seem to work :/ I'll be buying a shoe stretcher soon so hopefully that works.. if not I'll havta sell them boooooooooo

Anyways, Sonisphere soon YAY

YAY and BOO

So yesterday I got my lip pierced! FINALLLLYYYY! Im really proud of myself :)

I was adamant I wouldn't get it done without it being numbed, but when I got there they said theyr not allowed to numb it or something. Obviously I was gutted, and was begging them to do it haha. Anyways, they said to me that if i do wanna get it done the same day I would need to eat because i look so pale i look anemic, n me n dean just laughed and i said nah im wearing ALOT of makeup :P

So anyways I left and said I'll think about it, had a maccies.. well... TRIED to eat a maccies but I was far too nervous lol then afterwards I completely covered my lip in numbing cream hoping they wouldn't notice haha. Got there, and then after i'd filled in all the forms the numbing cream had worn off :P So that was a waste of time

Anywho - I went downstairs and sat on the chair, and well.. had it done haha :) I didn't even scream or cry or anything :) I can't believe it. I've wanted it done since I was 12 and now 10 years later its happened :)

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Also, on a crapper note, theres been a bit of a kaffufle lately :/ It seems that this week I've lost 2 good friends because of something which doesn't even involve me, and the sad thing is, I thought I meant more to them than that.

Dean has a tendency to say EXACTLY what hes thinking, which is good don't get me wrong, but he doesn't try to cushion it which can very easily hurt or offend people. After 6 years I've learnt to deal with it, believe me hes said some horrific things to me, but it comes as part of the package, you can't get the good parts without dealing with the bad parts.. no ones perfect.

Anyways, I understand why its hurtful what hes said, and usually when he says nasty things about people to me, instead of agreeing or arguing, its easier to accept his opinion and get on with it. Deans may have hurt them, but hes my boyfriend - not my puppet, I couldn't control him, even if I tried. If I stood in his way, he'd shout over the top of my head. I think people need to realise that instead of thinking I'm part of all this.

I just can't believe they're willing to throw away this friendship, just because of somethings hes said. Am I really that disposable?

Although I don't wanna lose any friends.. I don't think I wanna be friends with people who can play with my emotions like this and not even apologise for hurting me.

I'll never cause problems, I'll never act awkward and as far as I'm concerned I'll always be friendly with them, nothing has changed on my part - except for my opinion of them. This week I've realised that no matter how close I thought we were, it seems ending a friendship is as easy as clicking block and delete on Facebook.

People=Shit

Why does it seem like everyone comes with some sort of baggage?! Its rather annoying :( ...Makes me wonder whether I'm the one with the issues and everyone else is just normal. ...........What a load of crap haha everyones full of shit, I hate everyone right now. Well...... most people.

Anyways, I'm hopefully getting my lip pierced on Monday! :) I really hope I don't chicken out.. I want it done so bad I'm just scared of the pain. I've been told it doesn't hurt by so many different people, but I just can't get it out of my head :/

Oh and just for the record, today I've eaten a banana and a cup of coffee for breakfast, brown rice with vegetables and an orlistat tablet for dinner, a small bowl of strawberrys, kiwi and apple for dessert, a packet of salt & vinegar snack-a-jacks as a snack, and then a full packet of tic tacs to stop my evening hunger.

Next step is to follow the same regime, without the snack-a-jacks and tic tacs :)

I'm gonna listen to Tet and give Will Power another chance, lets hope he can help me.

My Birthday ...

..was great! :) Got lots of presents and had a good time! I had a few people come round to mine n we all sat off in the back garden n had a bbq n some drinks :)

So what did I get? Well...

Off Dean I'm getting these beauties..

Can't wait for them to arrive! :D Also hes getting me some fish net tights and a Machine Head hoody! wooooo :) I was originally meant to be getting boots off him, but he said he will get me them as a surprise one day and randomly turn up with them! ^_^

I also got a PVC corset which is sexuallll! :D I'll upload a photo of me wearing it after my night out next week :)

Here is a pic of everything I got on my bed :)



Also I had to cancel my birthday night out cause loads of people pulled out at the last minute :( So I'm gonna go out next week instead :) Anywhoooo thats all I have to say for today. Yeehawww.

365 Update

I'm so proud of myself :) I'm exactly half way through my 365! wooooo I didn't think I'd ever get this far..





I only missed one day in June, pretty good for ..181? days if i do say so myself lol

I'm also proud of myself for something else aswell. Last week Dean gave me my first guitar lesson, and I can now play major chords A,B,C,D,E,F,G and Am and Em :) Oh and at home on my own I managed to learn the intro to Fade to Black and a bit of a Sylosis sweep lol just can't get the strumming and sweeping correct yet :P

Anywayssss.. going shopping now to get my some birthday presents :)

Download Festival

Well, Apart from all the mud.. Download Festival was great! :) haha Tbh the mud and rain ruined it for me, but when it was sunny it was great so thats ok. All i'm gonna say is ROLL ON SONISPHERE! haha :)

So yeah the bands we saw: Unearth, 36 Crazyfists, Killswitch Engage, Them Crooked Vultures, ACDC, Sybreed, Some of Flyleaf, Atreyu, Five Finger Death Punch, Lamb of God, Megadeth, Deftones, Rage Against The Machine, Slash, Billy Idol, Steel Panther, Airbourne, Some Stone Temple Pilots, Aerosmith

............All were EXCELLENT :D

Anyways, updates in the world of Rei.

I was meant to go to see Deathstars and Sybreed on Tuesday and I didn't and now I'm REALLY regretting it! Grrr :( Hopefully they'll be back soon

Oh and Stevies party.. boss!! :) Gotta love Stevies partys, can't beat em haha

Ermmm what else... ohhhh. Well, this is random but I've been off the contraceptive pill for just over a month now and actually, its the best decision I've ever made :) I feel like a new person! I'm not as moody, I feel better about myself, me and dean are much happier and are alot closer and I've actually found my mojo! haha :P Good times.

Now I've just gotta lose some weight. Gonna go back on the Orlistat for some extra help. My target is 4 stone in 4 months :)

Yeahhhh

Ohhhh its almost Download Festival :D I can't wait! I've started making my dreads for the festival - theyr pink and green! :) Bit different, I'm not too keen on the way theyr looking right now but i'll just wait n see how they turn out I guess.

My mum went away camping on Wed n got back today, but it was good cause Dean stayed with me while she was away n we just chilled it was nice :) Gonna be weird sleeping alone tonight though.

Oh and I went to a gig on Wednesday with Leah, she bought 2 tickets to see Four Year Strong but her friend pulled out at the last minute so I went with her. I was pleasantly surprised :) They were quite good!

And then tonight we went to Rhys n Jennies house and ordered food n had some drinks which was nice :) Haven't saw them in aaaaaaaaaages! I defo think we should start meeting up more often

Anywho, I probs wont post again until after download woooo