Roter Sand und zwei Patronen, Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss, Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen, Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust ♥

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Eine Liebe ein Versprechen
Sagte ich komm zurück zu dir
Nun ich muss es leider brechen
Seine Kugel steckt in mir
Eine Liebe zwei Pistolen
Eine zielt mir ins Gesicht
Er sagt ich hätte dich gestohlen
Dass du mich liebst
Weiss er nicht

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust

Eine Liebe ein Versprechen
Ach das Blut läuft aus dem Mund
Und keiner wird mich rechen
Sinnlos gehe ich zu Grund
Eine Liebe zwei Pistolen
Einer konnte schneller ziehen
Nun ich bin es nicht gewesen
Jetzt gehörst du ihm

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust

Roter Sand und weisse Tauben
Laben sich an meinem Blut
Am Ende gibt es doch ein Ende
Bin ich doch zu etwas gut

Roter Sand und zwei Patronen
Eine stirbt in Pulverkuss
Die zweite soll ihr Ziel nicht schonen
Steckt jetzt tief in meiner Brust
♥

Weird feelings...

Talk about a blast from the past, I've just been reading Leahs old Livejournal posts from an age ago, and I must say, It didn't just back those happy memories, it also brought back many demons which I tried so hard to forget.

A long long time ago, Leah and I were like... jam on toast, chips and beans, apple crumble and custard, the bin and marmite, you just didn't get one without the other, we came as a pair. She was my best friend, and no one came close in comparison.

When mine and Deans relationship became serious, I made a fatal error.. I disconnected myself from life thinking nothing of it. I didn't just lose contact with Leah, and lost all my friends, and just went into my own little shell.

Naturally, Leah became friends with other people.. and it got to the point, were we didn't come as a pair anymore.. we didn't even come in the same category, we hardly talked. She found a best friend in Roxanne, who now I've came to love to bits myself, but at the time I didn't know her and all I did was see her as a threat.

Reading back on those old journals, it just reminds me of how much of a screw up I was. I should have been there, having a laugh, going out, just being a friend like everyone else. Instead I just.. let go of everyone I cared for and expected them to still be there when I wanted them.

In actual fact, which makes me feel even worse, I remember blaming every one else. I cut myself off, then when they all had moved on, I blamed them in my head, thinking they were the ones who left me, which obviously they would do if they thought I didn't wanna know them anymore :/

These are weird feelings right now :/ This was all in the past, I should be looking back, laughing and saying 'what was I thinking', but instead I feel.. angry for letting this whole shananigan occur.

- But then I think... everything happens for a reason. I have more friends than ever, I have my boyfriend of nearly 6 years.. Leah, my best friend and still, no1 comes close in comparison.. and I also have new best friends too who I love more than anything.

I think the moral of this story is, people are young, people grow and everyone makes mistakes, but it all happens for a reason, and I wouldn't be here today if it hadn't :/

I've been a happy bunny on the outside, but today has been the worst day of my life for about 3 years, and I have no explanation for why. Tuesdays suck.

Right now.

I think this is rather fitting right now...

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

Not had such a good day today :/

Today has just been...bleh :/

Early morning, uni was just.. a waste of time :/ It was so boring, in the lecture I was nearly falling asleep and it wasn't clear what we were even meant to do in the lab/tutorial. All we did was... basically, learn how to look if there are books in a library. My god I mean, do they think we're fucking stupid Eugh whats the point ¬_¬

Then when I got home, I had a ham sandwich... watched some House... fell asleep... woke up... ate my tea... and now I'm here. Tuesdays really suck, I want something to do, but I've no motivation to do anything.

On the other hand...

Liebe ist für alle da ♥♥♥

I guess thats the only interesting thing I have to say
Fin.

Babababababybel

Well, I did "alright" today, didn't scoff my face so its a start atleast. The only fatening thing I had was a scone and aboout 2 blocks of fruit & nut dairy milk lol :S

On to other news though, Dean has swine flu :( Went to his today n we were meant to clean Lizzys tank, but he said he felt really ill :/ So I went home anywho GAH! :( Not gonna see him for ages booooo. Well... til Wed haha

Anyway i cba today with this, I'm pissed off cause i've just spent the last hour looking for a suitable Chun Li costume, but they're all stupid :(
xxx

Ouchy >.<

Note to anyone taking Xenical Orlistat 120mg tablets (the 1s from the Doctors, not Alli - i dont no about them but i prosume its the same side effects), make sure you REMEMBER when you've taken them.. even if its just one! :(

I am weening myself back on em, so had 1 with breakfast this morning, but then completely forgot I'd taken one an hour later. **Damn my blasted memory** :/

So yeah, little ol' me thinks its ok to scoff all day! Last day then I'll diet tomorrow I told myself. So I binged on anything I could get my hands on all day! How stupid am i? :/

Im ashamed to say this but.... 2 slices of toast with peanut butter, ready salted walkers crisps, fudge bar, wine gums, half a sayers chicken fajita sub, a traditional pasty from sayers, an iced ring doughnut, chilli con carne with rice, a single kit kat, a packet of wotsits, a mars bar ice cream, 2 chippy spring rolls, half a small portion of chips from chippy

EUGHHHH what was I thinking?!?! :'( For the past hour I've had the worst cramps in my stomach ever, luckily because I took the tablet over 12hrs ago, I've been fortunate enough to not have the dreaded Orlistat side effec, attack of the killer oil. THANK GOD.

I will NOT be making the same mistake again! lol From today, goodbye Chippy, goodbye Sayers, goodbye Greggs, goodbye Chinese food, goodbye crisps, goodbye chocolate, goodbye... McDonalds :'( goodbye KFC :'( I'll miss u all haha...... Hello new skinny Rhiannon :D :D :D

Well.. watch this space. I can guarantee I'll have atleast one of the above 2moro though.. damn me and my lack of motivation! :/

I'm going to bed now to watch House :D
xxxx

My new new new rocks and glasses ♥

Good day people of Azeroth,
My new new new new rocks and glasses have arrived today! woohoo :D

Heres my new rocks:

I know, kissalicious aren't they!! ^-^ hehe

Oh ye.. photo bring back memories anyone?.. Lets go back say hmmm.. 4 years ago? lol

Ahhh my beautiful New Rock 373's, Platformed and Springed to perfection ♥

This little escapade seems to have formed a tradition.. maybe I'll do this for my Grandpa New Rocks and my Sella Dare boots.. we'll see :)

Anywhoooo, my glasses :D
They're from Glassesdirect.co.uk which i was introduced to by ze lovely Sarah! Its so cool, I chose 4 glasses and they sent me them out to try, and I can return em for free :)

Out of the 4 I ordered, only 2 of them are suitable unfortunately. Heres some pics of them:

Me with no glasses for comparison:


Cuba Libre


Daiquiri

Sorry I couldn't be bothered photoshopping these 2 so my skin aint perfect lol

Kamikaze
Just for the ol' shits n giggles :P

I think I'll probs go for the Cuba Libres, the Daiquiri frame is a bit too small so I can see it all the time. I'd love to keep the pink, but I would probs get funny looks in Uni haha

So thats all folks, I'm gonna go get into my pjs now, make a cup of tea & watch House in bed ♥ Sounds good to meeee :)