happiness :)

finally, my mind is at rest

my craving for that hidden connection has passed

funny really, seems i'm the only one still collapsed on the floor..

the last one

maybe these feelings are for the best

so i stand up.. and walk away

...lol thats not a poem or anything even if it might look like it, its just something that is in my mind right now. I don't think anyone else will ever understand it, and i don't intend to let anyone understand either. Sometimes its nice to have secrets that only you can smile about.. or cry about.

I find that secrets are things which are best left unsaid.. when someone knows.. they can bring it up and upset u. But if only you know, you can think about it only when you want to, when you know that it wont get to u.. when ur feeling strong.

'If you don't think about it.. sometimes it doesn't exist in your mind'.. well when someone else knows, they can bring it up to you and make you think about it.

Well basically, that secret has turned itself around.. and no wim happy :) im tired now tho, ive been writing this for almost 3 hours lol, ive partied and chatted with andy mn leah whilest writing it and i ended up leavin it for a while and now i cant be btoehred finished haha

this is utter happiness.. feeling how i feel :)