Uni, Jobs, and other poo

Well, its official.. I've left Uni :/ Not something I want to do obviously, I'm actually quite upset about it but I think its best for me in the long run.

Basically, this year alot of shit has happened and I've been a bag of stress and worry, and my main priority has been making sure Dean is ok, but in the process of that I was so distracted from Uni that I got behind with the lectures and work. I thought I was going to be ok at first, until I assessed the situation and realised I had 4 courseworks (2 group ones) due in less than 3 months, followed by numerous exams, AND I had to find a work placement in that time as well.

So, I had to really think about what I wanted in life and I've came to the conclusion that, yeah I probably could have scraped through the coursework, and possibly got an extremely shit mark for the year. Whats that going to get me? The games industry is extremely hard to get in to, and although there are companies in Liverpool, its pretty clear that I'd need to move away to get a job. And then theres that question, who the fuck in the right mind would hire someone who hasnt got a clue about anything? Yeah I'd scrape by, doesn't mean I know it. I've missed the lectures I don't know what I'm doing. I know bare essentials of the programming languages, the placements require someone with a grasp on them, which isn't me right now.

Looking at the bigger picture here, I'd waste 4 years of my life costing approx 25k, to then get a job in a supermarket or a barmaid or something with a degree which means nothing. No thanks.

My situation now is, I don't have as much debt, and I've only wasted 2 years instead of 4. But to be honest, its not 2 years wasted because I've learnt alot about computers/gates etc and about myself. I'm glad I took the route I have, and anyways, I have the credits from the first year.. maybe in the future when the time is right, I could go back. Barry and Anita have both done it, aged 30+ so why can't I?

And looking at the even bigger picture, me and Dean NEED to move out in the next few months. We need a stable environment and we need money. Thats not something I can give in Uni, especially when its in the back of my mind that I could be working instead of scrounging off Deans Asda wages. Dean in Asda, and me in uni, we wouldn't get benefits and my student loans would be reduced because I'd be living away from parents, so its almost impossible.

I just wish people would see it from my perspective for a change, instead of seeing me as a failure. I feel like a failure enough without people reminding me every time they look at me. I wish I'd realised this a year ago I really do, but unfortunately a year ago I didn't, because a year ago me and Dean were fine. Dean was well and we wern't looking for a flat back then.

The way people need to look at this is, I didn't CHOOSE to lose my job with Littlewoods, I got made redundant. Everyone around me (Except Dean) kept telling me to go to Uni and I thought it'd be a good idea. It didn't work out, its not for everyone and right now its just not for me in my current situation. But as I said, maybe in the future.

So, now after clearing that up, what next? Well.. Littlewoods are looking for people again, I've rang and am waiting for a reply. Asda are also taking on, so maybe just maybe. Theres a few others, but non really worth mentioning. I'd be happy with Littlewoods or Asda. But haha I'm clearly living in a dreamworld if I think I'll get either of them jobs in this climate. Leahs been looking for months with no glory. Dean has an appointment with ASDA on friday, so hopefully he'll be set up at least. I've also *reluctantly* got in touch with the job centre too so hopefully I'll hear back from them soon.

Erm so thats me at the moment, oh and my Blackberry died. Piece of shit lol Gonna havta reboot it, which I should be able to do myself *fingers crossed*

Aaaaand, oh yeah, Korn Agains gig yesterday was interesting. In Newcastle upon Lyme, in the daytime. Think they had about 7/8 people other than us who they brought with them lol They were great though non the less, and were told by the manager that they'd go down a treat in the night time :)

Then theres Bournemouth on friday and possibly a gig on Saturday. Hope I can go to them, I like going as its a break away from reality if that makes sence. No stress, no money/job/uni worries, nothing.. just me being a tag along haha or would the word be 'groupie' lol. I know it can't last forever but its a nice break away and I'm lucky to be able to go to some of them. I love road trips, I love gigs, I love KoRn, I love the lads from Korn Again, I love photography, and I love seeing Dean on stage. So, yeah, the gigs are epic haha.

Erm, nothing much else to say really. Oh, me and Dean successfully cut down the massive trees in my back garden :) They were about the touch the telephone wires which would have caused loads of shit, and plus the sun was hidden so we thought fuck it lets do it haha. Managed to cut them down to a nice size so they're still there but they're nice and neat :) Theres a massive pile of branches at the side of the house, which is actually bigger than the trees themself :') Gonna put them into garden bags today hopefully.

Oh and I made some RAINBOW DREADS :D They're gonna look amazing. Hopefully putting them in on wednesday or thursday :)

Peace. out.

Snowwww ♥

Howdo,

We've been getting lots of snow lately and I looooove it! ♥

This is mine and Deans snow child - Rufus

I'm hoping that the snow stays cause I'm due back in Uni on Monday and I really cba haha.

Also its Deans 21st birthday next week and I don't wanna be in Uni cause I wanna get totally gazeboed haha :D

Anyways, other things I have to talk about..

I'm still keeping to my new years resolution. Although usually I don't remember until the evening when I've started to settle so I look like a wreck on them all haha Oh well :P

Toodloo x

Dreams or Plans?

I can't believe it, i've always wanted to live in America, but in reality the dream just felt so far away. Things like that don't happen to normal folk like me, it was only a year ago I planned to work in a call centre the rest of my life and settle for an easy life. Now look at me, I'm in Uni and the dreams feel so much closer now, but even still.. I'm just a normal person I'm no one special.

I've just been browsing an estate agents website, for houses and apartments for sale in Florida & Missouri. I am just... in disbelief right now, sooooo I felt it necessary to write a blog.

There are houses for sale, detatched houses I might add, 4 bedrooms, 2/3 bathrooms, large living areas with space for dining tables, large kitchens, games rooms, swimming pools, 2 car garage, large garden.. for $170,000.. that works out at around about £111,000!! I mean.. in England right now its pretty much impossible to get a house for that price right now, unless its a flat. I just can't believe it, and thats just a normal house! Its average there

I dunno, maybe they get paid less there but yenoo.. i'd sacrifice a few pounds of my pay packet to live somewhere like that.

There are people who have completed my uni course and have went on to get employment in Boston and San Fransisco. If I do well.. that could be me.

P&D no more woohoooooo

Found out today that my worrrsssttt lecture P&D (ON A TUESDAY I MIGHT ADD), only lasts 1 semester, which means I don't have it anymore after the 7th Dec yaaaaaay :D

I can sit at home on crappy Tuesdays, and do fuck all :) (Hopefully anyway) lol

I must say, Friday 13th wasn't so bad at all :)

x

Oh and P.S. I've taken out the dreads, gonna put em back in next week probs

Not had such a good day today :/

Today has just been...bleh :/

Early morning, uni was just.. a waste of time :/ It was so boring, in the lecture I was nearly falling asleep and it wasn't clear what we were even meant to do in the lab/tutorial. All we did was... basically, learn how to look if there are books in a library. My god I mean, do they think we're fucking stupid Eugh whats the point ¬_¬

Then when I got home, I had a ham sandwich... watched some House... fell asleep... woke up... ate my tea... and now I'm here. Tuesdays really suck, I want something to do, but I've no motivation to do anything.

On the other hand...

Liebe ist für alle da ♥♥♥

I guess thats the only interesting thing I have to say
Fin.

2nd week

Well... into the 2nd week of Uni!
I'm rather enjoying it so far :) Bit boring but I'm sure it'll get more interesting as time goes on :/ whether thats a good thing or a bad thing though i dunno! haha

Got our first piece of coursework today BLEHHH. I haven't done any form of course work or homework in... hmmm about 3 and a half years? haha I feel like a kid again!

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Had an amazing night in Stevies on Saturday, everyone came round for a lil party while his parents are away ^_^ It was great cause I got to meet some new people - Tet, Sean & Helen, who are all so cool! I'm glad they came :D
I also liked the fact that I got to know some people a bit more :) Like Hayley, shes so funny! ♥ *pikapika* ^_^, Claire as always just amazing, once again found out more things which we have in common! haha, Gary the Daddy to be awww ^-^ and Roxie just lovely as always! ♥ Looks like Leah & Rox might have sorted everything out too so I'm happy :D I'm sure we're all gonna get along just fine! I love them all ♥♥♥ :)

Anyway, after that splosh oh loveydoveyness, My mum sent off the form for mine & Deanybobs home! So, hopefully this time next year I'll be living in my own house! Yaaaay.

Thats all for now, I'm off to get my daily dose of House ♥

Day before Uni

Omg, I'm so nervous about tomorrow. Heading for a brown alert i tells ya! lol :P Gotta be there for 11am which isn't too bad, but I don't know what to bring, or what to wear or anything ARGHHH.
I'm guessing its gonna be a rather boring day aswell, just like showing us around the library n stuff :/ Woop.
Oh well, wish me luck Earth, I'm going to watch some tv now :)
xxx

First post.. ohh yeeeaahh

Howdy all,
So, my first post :) Well lets use this time to get some things out there..

Yours truly has just arrived back off holiday 2 days ago, had the best time ever ^_^ Went to the lovely Riu Bambu in Punta Cana, Dominican Republic for 2 weeks, and am still yet to upload the photos to Facebook. Dunno whats got into me, im guessing it has something to do with me taking like... 900 or something stupid :S haha.
Well, I would defo recommend everyone to go there, but if you do make sure you go AI, its VERY expensive over there.
We did 4 excursions all in all, Outback Safari, Dolphin Funtastic, Saona Island and Reef Explorer. Had an excellent time and would recommend them all :)
Outback Safari was great, got to meet some of the locals and see how coffee, chocolate and mamajuana is made, we then got to taste what they had just made! But be warned.. the taste is disgusting :P haha
Dolphin Funtastic was good too, we kissed a dolphin, then got the dance with him and feed him. Also we made him jump over a bar which was fun. Also they had Sea Lions there and we got a kiss off one too :) Got some great pics will upload them eventually.
Saona Island, well words can't even describe how beautiful it is ^_^ We travelled there on a catamaran which was awesome, just chilled in the sun in the middle of the Caribbean Sea :) spent about 3 hours at Saona and dinner and drinks were all free, then we were taken (in a speedboat) to a natural bath about a mile off the shore. Surprisingly it was quite shallow, only about 5/6ft deep. It was unbelievable, there were starfish just chillaxin at the bottom, and we got to hold them and we took pics (also will be uploaded, eventually) ^_^ Oh and we got to feed Piranas! (From the safety of the speedboat.. haha safety?)

And finally Reef Explorer, my favourite out of all the excursions :) We were taken to the south coast (Caribbean Sea were its warm) and brought out on a speedboat to a platform in the middle of the sea, about 2 miles out. There were 6 activities available and we could choose what we wanted when we wanted if we wanted lol :P
First we did Snorkelling (masks snorkel and flippers were given to us) and we swam all around the coral reefs. I couldn't believe how many fish there were, hundreds.. thousands even! We took bread in with us and fed them from our hands, but it was rather awkward cause i'd never swam with flippers before lol
Then we went and had some lunch, well.. i say lunch i had 1 butty and some pineapple lol. All free again which was good. Next we went into the enclosure which had the GIANT stingrays, 18 in all. Got my pic taken (soom to be uploaded), and then had a swim with them. Without knowing it, we ventured into the enclosure with the sharks in, but it was all cool they were just chillin on the bottom lol.
Before we knew it 4 hours was nearly up, so I got in my last activity.. the one i think i might need again right now haha.. free massage :) mmm it was brilliant! lol The other activities included Kayaks, sun loungers and floating loungers which go on the sea.

The activities at the beach on our resort were cool too, all non motorised watersports were free, so we made good use of them :) First we did Kayaks.. fucking shit myself I did haha. Ive used Kayaks in a lake before but the sea is totally different, nearly fell off like a million times lol. Then me and Dean hired a peddleboat, also rather scary haha. On the last day we got Snorkels.. but to our dissapointment there weren't many fish :/ oh well lol

Oh and the shows in the Riu Bambu were awesome too! I've just noticed this blog entry is like a total essay, so ill slow down now lol. The animácion team work so hard but they don't show it, they all look like they're having so much fun and are always very friendly. They have a different show everynight.. i can't even choose which was my favourite! lol

Anyway, on to other matters.. I enrolled for Uni today, got my student card which means im officially a student as of today LOL. Dreading Monday (the day i start) .. really worried I'll hate it, or I'll hate the people, or I'll be the only girl or something oh dear lol

And on to sad news, poor little Otto died while we were away :( He was very old anyway though, I think we were all expectin it to be honest. Also someone from Deans family died while we were away too :( Needless to say, we didn't come home to a happy environment understandably. I feel sorry for Dean, he was so happy to be home, and that was what he was told in the car on the way back :/ he's ok though
xx

How depressing, only 20 and I'm a "reduntee" =( Another victim of the recession

*Sigh* Well, I've had a good cry today to say the least, now I'm dealing with it.

When I got into work today they had a meeting and announced that they're going to close our Call Centre. "Supposedly" our customers are now shopping online and don't need to call us as much, explain why we never have a break off the phones then please!!

So, I've got 90 days to look for a new job, and time to transfer all my direct debits into my mums name if I cant get one, nice isnt it after nearly 2 years of service.. I'm probably not even going to get redundancy pay. Obviously I'll be trying my hardest to get a new job, but 1000 people have just been layed off in Crosby, so everyone is going to be applying for the same job as me.

LUCKILY, I had a change of heart 3 days ago, I decided I am going to go to Uni. Obviously everyone was given the day off work today, so my mum picked me up and I went down to the Unis to get a Prospectus. God knows what I'm going to do, I'll have a good look through tomorrow when I'm sitting in work refusing to take any calls!!

I suppose from a company perspective I can see why they closed Crosby out of all the Call Centres, but they didn't even give us an inkling we were under threat, just one day KABLAMO.

There goes my holiday which I was going on for my 21st too *Sigh*

What a shit day this has been, I didn't even win the lottery again. Haha funny isnt it, I suppose that was my stupid way of trying to give this situation a silver lining. S'not gonna happen, I feel so insignificant. I knew I was anyway in a Call Centre with 1000 staff, but this just reinforces it.

I'm just so lucky I don't have loads of bills to pay, the only bill I have unpaid is my Littlewoods Staff Account... haha.

Oh well, suppose I'll have to go to sleep now, I'm in work 1.30 till 11pm tomorrow, happy days.

Rei xxx


EDIT 01/02/09: I suppose I best add this in, we found out we're being closed down because of the online success (They don't need us now on the phones). So... In a way I've brought this upon myself, damn my eternal online shopping habits! I bought so many things on the website recently I've kicked myself out of my own job, its just gets better doesnt it lol

University?... Nah no thanks. Applied for AWESOME job though!

Ive decided after LOTS of debaiting, not to go to Uni this year :(

Although i want to go, i am not keen enough on the course, and if i don't like it thats 3,000quid in debt i'd be, or i'd have 4 years down the drain.

When i first looked at courses i saw one in Hope University which was Multimedia and Media combined, which is what i really want to do! I applied and then a week later they informed me it wouldn't be running this year :(

I looked for similar courses and this is what i found, Multimedia Systems in John Moores. It looks good and i would probs enjoy it, but theres lots of things i wont enjoy and i knwo if i dont like the course ill want to leave.

I'm gonna either find a job for a year or do another college course, and then next year ill see if the Media/Multimedia course is running again.

I contacted Hope Uni the other day, and ive been told it will be running, so we'll see :)

ive found a job in the museum which ive applied for! :D Its working in the shops i think which is WELL cool!!!!!!!!!!! I love the museum loads so ive really sold myself on the application form :) *fingers crossed* If i got this job, i probs wouldn't wanna go back into education.. thats how much i lurveeee the museum :P

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In other news though, my mum n bro are away this week in Ireland, so Deans been staying with me.

Last night we were up till 5am working on his bands layout :) Its really cool check it out!

Thats all x

Bye Bye Hugh Baird :(

Although college pretty much sucked for the whole two years!.. i will most definitely miss it

The disgusting and decieving sausages in the cantine, The over priced dr pepper, My annoying scally class - they were so annoying, yet i will still mis em, The brilliant student card which got me on the bus 10p cheaper , The boring work, which wasn't hard but i just couldn't be bothered doing, the unhelpful and unreliable lecturers!.. so much stuff i hated yet ill miss!

I even met Hannah, who in high school was what you would call on big brother 'one of the plastics'. I never knew her as much, so really she was just another one in the crowd of 'annoying scallys'.

Its a shame that in high school people think like that, because in actual fact Han is really cool, and i think its safe to say if she wasn't there for the second year i would have went crazy!

Also Laura, another one who kept me sane!..well.. she is pretty crazy herself! lol I hope i see her again cause we got on really well and had a laugh together!

Han n Lau are stayin in college for another course unfortunately! I'm the only one aspriring to bigger and brighter things....

JOHN MOORES UNIVERSITY

here i come! (hopefully)

I need MMP to get into uni, and i think ive just got it! When i get my results ill leave another blog!

I remember when Leah and I left high school and were saying 'we're college chicks now'.. it seems like only a couple of months ago... in actual fact it was 2 years ago!!! wahhhhhhh!

University Student now i am.. must invest in some intelectual style glasses, brown clothing and start listening to bands such as.. Dirty Pretty Things and The Strokes? I don't know, what do 'that sort' listen to? lol im doomed!

Thats if i get in anyway

We've had Download Festival... We've had the struggle to finish all my college work (now ive just got to upload it, put all the information on the pages and send to Triphazard!)

Next is.... MY BIRTHDAY! SOOOOON!