Uni, Jobs, and other poo

Well, its official.. I've left Uni :/ Not something I want to do obviously, I'm actually quite upset about it but I think its best for me in the long run.

Basically, this year alot of shit has happened and I've been a bag of stress and worry, and my main priority has been making sure Dean is ok, but in the process of that I was so distracted from Uni that I got behind with the lectures and work. I thought I was going to be ok at first, until I assessed the situation and realised I had 4 courseworks (2 group ones) due in less than 3 months, followed by numerous exams, AND I had to find a work placement in that time as well.

So, I had to really think about what I wanted in life and I've came to the conclusion that, yeah I probably could have scraped through the coursework, and possibly got an extremely shit mark for the year. Whats that going to get me? The games industry is extremely hard to get in to, and although there are companies in Liverpool, its pretty clear that I'd need to move away to get a job. And then theres that question, who the fuck in the right mind would hire someone who hasnt got a clue about anything? Yeah I'd scrape by, doesn't mean I know it. I've missed the lectures I don't know what I'm doing. I know bare essentials of the programming languages, the placements require someone with a grasp on them, which isn't me right now.

Looking at the bigger picture here, I'd waste 4 years of my life costing approx 25k, to then get a job in a supermarket or a barmaid or something with a degree which means nothing. No thanks.

My situation now is, I don't have as much debt, and I've only wasted 2 years instead of 4. But to be honest, its not 2 years wasted because I've learnt alot about computers/gates etc and about myself. I'm glad I took the route I have, and anyways, I have the credits from the first year.. maybe in the future when the time is right, I could go back. Barry and Anita have both done it, aged 30+ so why can't I?

And looking at the even bigger picture, me and Dean NEED to move out in the next few months. We need a stable environment and we need money. Thats not something I can give in Uni, especially when its in the back of my mind that I could be working instead of scrounging off Deans Asda wages. Dean in Asda, and me in uni, we wouldn't get benefits and my student loans would be reduced because I'd be living away from parents, so its almost impossible.

I just wish people would see it from my perspective for a change, instead of seeing me as a failure. I feel like a failure enough without people reminding me every time they look at me. I wish I'd realised this a year ago I really do, but unfortunately a year ago I didn't, because a year ago me and Dean were fine. Dean was well and we wern't looking for a flat back then.

The way people need to look at this is, I didn't CHOOSE to lose my job with Littlewoods, I got made redundant. Everyone around me (Except Dean) kept telling me to go to Uni and I thought it'd be a good idea. It didn't work out, its not for everyone and right now its just not for me in my current situation. But as I said, maybe in the future.

So, now after clearing that up, what next? Well.. Littlewoods are looking for people again, I've rang and am waiting for a reply. Asda are also taking on, so maybe just maybe. Theres a few others, but non really worth mentioning. I'd be happy with Littlewoods or Asda. But haha I'm clearly living in a dreamworld if I think I'll get either of them jobs in this climate. Leahs been looking for months with no glory. Dean has an appointment with ASDA on friday, so hopefully he'll be set up at least. I've also *reluctantly* got in touch with the job centre too so hopefully I'll hear back from them soon.

Erm so thats me at the moment, oh and my Blackberry died. Piece of shit lol Gonna havta reboot it, which I should be able to do myself *fingers crossed*

Aaaaand, oh yeah, Korn Agains gig yesterday was interesting. In Newcastle upon Lyme, in the daytime. Think they had about 7/8 people other than us who they brought with them lol They were great though non the less, and were told by the manager that they'd go down a treat in the night time :)

Then theres Bournemouth on friday and possibly a gig on Saturday. Hope I can go to them, I like going as its a break away from reality if that makes sence. No stress, no money/job/uni worries, nothing.. just me being a tag along haha or would the word be 'groupie' lol. I know it can't last forever but its a nice break away and I'm lucky to be able to go to some of them. I love road trips, I love gigs, I love KoRn, I love the lads from Korn Again, I love photography, and I love seeing Dean on stage. So, yeah, the gigs are epic haha.

Erm, nothing much else to say really. Oh, me and Dean successfully cut down the massive trees in my back garden :) They were about the touch the telephone wires which would have caused loads of shit, and plus the sun was hidden so we thought fuck it lets do it haha. Managed to cut them down to a nice size so they're still there but they're nice and neat :) Theres a massive pile of branches at the side of the house, which is actually bigger than the trees themself :') Gonna put them into garden bags today hopefully.

Oh and I made some RAINBOW DREADS :D They're gonna look amazing. Hopefully putting them in on wednesday or thursday :)

Peace. out.

Update

Haven't blogged in a while.. been busy with Uni work :( Boooo

But anyways, I had a good easter :) Still got lots of chocolate left and I'm gonna eat lots of it now haha greeeedy

Oh and finally, yes finally, Leah and Roxanne are fine again :) I'm so happy its over. I've missed Rox and haven't really been able to see or speak to her because of all this crap, there just hasn't been an opportunity! :( It was such a little small insignificant thing, blown completely out of proportion and its messed with so many peoples lives, not cool at all.

Also, I put Lews hair into *real* dreads :) They're looking excellenté but obviously not properly formed yet, will take a few months/years for that haha

Ermmm so yeah just a quick update really lol. I'm still taking my photo everyday, I haven't had time to compile March into a video yet though :/

Oh and I've made an Auto clicker program.. go me :P

I love you Phillip Morris :D

I love you Phillip Morris! haha Great film, I suggest you all watch it :) Jim Carey never fails.

Anyways, last night I started doing Lews dreads! woooo! They don't look like proper dreads just yet, but soon hopefully they will start to stick

Ohhhhh, and its almost time to create part 3 of my 365 journey yahooooo

Fear Factory gig

Fear Factory was great! :) And Sylosis, wow. I predict that they're gonna be massive if they keep going the way they are! I think one of the highlights of the night was NOT missing the train aswell haha :P Nah it only took us 8 mintues to walk from the Academy to Oxford Road station, so I'm a bit confused. Also the train waiting about 4 minutes aswell before it left, unlike when we saw LOG. So yeah, extra confusion lol

Anyways, I'm now dreadless again lol. I decided it was time for them to come out cause my head was rather itchy and I knew my hair was gonna be really dirty :P I'll probs have more in though next week knowing me haha

Ohhh and yesterday Kevzie got in touch and linked me to his old Blog! haha awwww the memories :) ♥ I miss them days.

Deans 21st (so far, haha)

Woop, so last night was my lovely boyfriends 21st birthday :) It was a really good day & night!

He absolutely loved his presents :) His m13 pedal arrived and lights up nice rainbow colours which i like haha, and his face when he realised what present I got him! Apparently his step dad Paul said he looked like he was going to cry lol I'm glad he likes it, although i'll probs regret it lol

Because I didn't have time to make him a card and his present didn't arrive I made him this instead :) (click on it for full size to read the text)...

Needless to say, I REALLY WILL regret it! haha

Also, when Leah saw my handywork she asked me to create her one too for her present.. so this is from Leah, made by yours truely. (Again, click for full size)

The night was amazing too, went to the Krazyhouse :) Dean had a good time too which I'm glad about. He had tons of drinks thrown at him - god knows how many tequilas, loaaaads of shots, lots of wkds, 4 cups of champage!, loads of lager.. it was crazy lol. I don't know how he did it but he managed to keep it all down there, I was really expecting to be cleaning up vomit at the end of the night! haha *so proud* :P

♥♥♥

Highlight of the night

At about half 3 (keeping in mind K1 is a heavy rock/metal floor) all of a sudden, this weird song came on, and EVERYONE on the dancefloor formed a massive conga line! lmao It was A.W.E.S.O.M.E

♥♥♥

So anywho, yeah it was a great night. A lot of people have shown their true colours though unfortunately :/ I'm not even going to bother going into it on here, because quite honestly its not worth it. Alls I'm gonna say is, you were all out for a reason, and you didn't even bother to give him an excuse. And to those who have since got in touch and apologised, this is not directed at you.

Anyway, this isn't gonna go any further. I'm gonna forget about it, everyone makes mistakes and deserves a second chance, but I just think its a bit shit of you all tbh :/ He didn't care anyway, he was just dissapointed.

So yeah, other than that it was all chips and beans :) Here are a few photos from the night!

Dean and his millions of Tequilas lol

Dean and his Dad :)

For old times/comparison sake :) Me, Leah, Sean & Dean. I look really fat on it but its just the way I'm standing!! lol
And the older photo, Sean, Dean, Me & Leah. And I look like a MAN on this one, but its because my hair was black and you can't see it! haha God knows whats going on with my face too :P
14 January 2010 compared to 31 December 2004
awww all grown up now :P haha yeh right

Andy & Leah


Bev & Andy

Leah & Nikki

Adam & Sean

There are loads more but I left the memory card in Deans laptop lol

Just wanna say thanks to everyone for coming and making sure Dean had a good night :) Can't wait for next time! lol

And just for Luna, heres a proper one of me with my dreads in :P Awful pic but oh well lol Its day 14 of my 365, taking a photo of myself every day :D

Also tonight Me & Dean made sausage and mash which was yummy! Then we went to the cinema to see Book of Eli, I liked it! Anything with Denzel Washington in is always good :)

Roll on tomorrow for a little party in Deans house for him and his Dad :) Can't wait!

Dreads & Deans 21!

Soooo, I've finally finished putting my dreads in! lol This time I've gone for black on bottom, pink&fuschia in middle, and blue on top :) I like the colour combination but I'm not 100% sure on them yet :/ We'll see lol

I took a photo of all the dreads I made in the past 3 years, some of them are really wrecked and need resealing or throwing away, also you can see the colours i installed today :)

Here they are:

Ohhhh, and technically it is now Deans 21st Birthday :) I can't wait for tomorrow although I'm dreading it at the same time.. its gonna be freezing! haha Tonight we're going out to town, we're going for a meal on Friday/tomorrow too and goin the pics to see Book of Eli (i think) so should be fun :) and then on Saturday I'm doing a little party for him n his dad whos birthday is the 17th, so its an action packed weekend thats for sure! lol

I'll upload some pics in a few days :)

Oh oh oh oh oh and thats what I was meant to post aswell, its been snowwwwiiiingg again :) Im happy.
I hate the way people moan that they want it to go now, we wont have weather like this again for another 10 years probs, people need to lighten up and enjoy it while it lasts!!

Anyways, thats all. I'm getting a headache now from the dreads :( Not good, always happens on the first day lol :/
xxx

P&D no more woohoooooo

Found out today that my worrrsssttt lecture P&D (ON A TUESDAY I MIGHT ADD), only lasts 1 semester, which means I don't have it anymore after the 7th Dec yaaaaaay :D

I can sit at home on crappy Tuesdays, and do fuck all :) (Hopefully anyway) lol

I must say, Friday 13th wasn't so bad at all :)

x

Oh and P.S. I've taken out the dreads, gonna put em back in next week probs

Ouchie, my head itches >.<

Yarp my head itches, think I'll by taking these darned dreads out soon, i love them but I don't know how anyone can leave them in for more than 2 weeks! Its a nightmare. Might take them out for a few days then put more in for Jeremy Kyle on Thursday :)

And in other news...Had a good day today with Leah♥

Went into Uni *late* today to finish stupid P&D coursework, and to my delight couldn't find my group anywhere. So I sat there for like 30mins on Facebook, and did a Flash tutorial, then it didn't work and i got angry but Leah saved me :)

Shes got conjunctivitus so we went to the Chemist to get her some ointment, then headed off to the Bakers Dozen for some Burgers (MLIA), then we went shopping in Matalan woowoo :)

Started my xmas shopping which is good, CANT WAITTTTTT.

Anyway, gonna go now to tidy my room then I think i'll give my Xbox some love, haven't been on it in a while cause the wires are all tangled. I should really set the Wii up again and get on the Wii fit to lose some weight.. maybe ill set it up b4 i go on xbox :)

xx

P.S. Yes I've just had so much fun making this post Rainbow colours.. i really am lame. I'm just avoiding the inevitable task of tidying my room lol :P

Muse, Dreads and Claire ♥

Yes... Muse was friggin awesome! :D I was a bit dissapointed that they wern't very interactive, however they have no faults what so ever for performance. They're perfect live, sound pretty much exactly like the Albums which is great :) And the set up, my god it was amazing. lasers, big structures, giant balloons which wer thrown onto the crowd haha I'm not dissapointed that I missed Bomfire night, and thats saying something :)

I've also put my dreads in *yay* Black and blue, looks great :) Had loads of good comments, and they're Scott approved aswell :D yaaaay haha. According to Scott they're the "Best Rei dreads ever" w00pw00p ^_^

Also, we went out for Claires birthday yesterday! :D Was aweeesoooome. Went to Claires house first for a lil house partay and had marshmallows with Chocolate fountain-ness mmmm ^-^ And then Sausage Rolls and Chocolate fountain-ness nnyyyeeeemmmm ^{*thanks Leah♥*}, and then about a bazillion strawberries whilst talking to Tet haha :P And I had lots and lots of Lambrini LOL
Got to meet Claires family too for the first time which was nice, they're all so lovely :) Also met lots of other new people too, now just gotta try n find them on Facebook which should be erm...fun.
Then we went to the Swan and bumped into Scott n Nikki which was good :D Annnnnd then off the K we trotted. Was an awesome night all in all ^-^ muchly fun. Claire looked like she had a good night too which I'm happy about :) ♥ and she liked her presents! Yay ^-^ I thought she might like em cause it's the type of thing I'd want haha :P
Oh and now i'll say something very depressing.... I've watched all the episodes of House now :( booohoooo. Gotta wait for the next episode like normal people do, its so weird i dont like it!

Muse tonight..

Meesaa cantaa waitaaa! :D
Gonna see Muse at the Echo Arena tonight, my first ever visit! I am actually rather excited about seein the arena too lol ^-^
Just washed my hair.. think I might put some synthetic dreads in.. we'll see.
x

Lalaaaa

Bought loaaads of make up n stuff from Avon today, cost me a small fortune! haha My boots are now also perfect Oh and i have started my hair, its pink and black Sexehhhh!
Oh and yay, i've eaten lots of chinese food today lol I have squid in mah belleh! *bluuueehh* grose lol

Oh oh oh and i was on £24 an hour today ^__^ i earned 168quids!! wowza

New Hair, New Chocolate, New Announcement!

Hair
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Ok, so yes i have new hair! It is no longer pink, sorry to all you pinkanatics! I may go back pink for Download Fest, or maybe get pink dreads..we shall see

It is a dark plummy purple blacky colour! Niiiice. I'm hoping this will help me get a job! lol

I'll get some pictures asap and put them up! ^_^

Chocolate
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Yaaaaay we all love chocolate! Easter was great this year, although i couldn't buy anyone eggs, i got lots in not return! Maltesers, Hello Kitty Smoothie Cup Easter Egg, GIANT BUNNY RABBIT TEDDY, Milky Bar Buttons, Haribo Mix, and off dean lots and lots!

Dean planned a giant easter hunt for me in his house, had me going for ages routin around his house with little riddles on each prize to help find the next one! lol Good fun

Announcement
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Yup The new announcement for Download Festival has been leaked! The bastards have gave us POP AND ELECTRO bands! WTF is goin on! And the only metal bands we do get are shite anyway. Livenation what are you doing to us what kind of easter present is this psshh!

So thats all folks.