My Birthday & Sonisphere

Well, my birthday bbq was brilliant :D Dean sorted out the food as always cause hes the resident bbqer :P and we had looots of drinks :) Lots of people turned up too but it wasn't too crowded like we were worried about. 20 people fit in the bungalow can you believe it!! haha nah we were in the back garden luckily :P LUCKILY the weather was perfect :)

Brilliant night and theres actually still quite alot of alcohol left so might have to do it again :P

Its just a shame my actual birthday didn't follow that pattern :/ Started off by getting some great presents off Dean :) A cat ears hoody and Dance Central xbox Kinect game, however we couldn't use the game because we didn't have a Kinect adapter. Soooo, we went to the Strand to buy a new xbox and trade in our old Elite. The plan for the night was to go to the Cinema and for a meal, with me Dean my mum and whoever else wanted to come, however didn't quite pan out! Dan got arrested for smoking/in possession of weed, and there were random strangers in the house cause the police had left them there (they're Dans friends, but theyr strangers to me). So I spent my birthday waiting in a fucking police station for Dan, and when we does come out, he had the cheek to just grin then walk away and not even say happy birthday or anything, he didn't even say hi.

Me n Dean ended up going for a meal alone anyway without my mum and then went to see Transformers which was good. Just a shame it was overshadowed by all the drama :(

I really don't know whats happened to him lately. In the space of only a month or two, hes been involved with the police on numerous occasions, had fights and lost his gf Mel (which I'm actually quite devastated about - shes so lovely and meeting her was the best thing that ever happened to him) If he carries on like this hes going to lose his job :/

Anywhooooo Sonisphere was awesome :) Bands were excellent and pics to follow! Unfortumately Miread (Jays gf) had toncilitus so couldn't really talk or drink so a mad one was off the menu, but we had a good time anyways :)

Righty, Dean will be home soon :) Oh last but not least, Deans got a job working nights, so we'll be working together :D Most people say they'd hate it, but i think we'll be fine :) We'll be on completely different aisles anyway and the only time we'll see eachother is at breaks or if hes walking past. Plus we'll save on taxis :) yaaaay

So much

So much has happened since my last post lol

Well, I best start off with the most important. Pippin is still missing :( I just can't even begin to understand what might have happened to him. People say oh he'll turn up hes still out there somewhere, and then others say wouldn't you like to think hes still alive somewhere? Right now, all I can think of is that I hope hes been ran over and was killed instantly. I can't bare the thought that he could be out there lost, starving confused, cold. I also don't like the idea that someone has captured him and hes terrified, he was such a scardy cat and terrified of strangers. I don't know, I guess the best scenario would be hes been getting fed by someone else and decided to live there.

Anyway, if he is out there, I just hope hes happy and safe. I miss him so much :(

So yeah, since Pippins gone missing me and Dean have moved out. Well... ish. We're staying in Deans nans because shes not well and is getting looked after by his mum n Paul. Her bungalow was broken into a few months ago so we decided to stay here for a while so people don't get suspecious of the house being empty.

Its nice though, having our own place with all our own stuff doing what we want when we want.. well.. again thats ish haha. Deans a fussy bugger about things being tidy :/ lol Nemo is with us too. He seemed a bit bewildered being at home and seemed on a bit of a downer, and I was worried that the house might smell a bit like Pippin. So we decided to move him into the bungalow with us. We've been here about a month now n he seems really happy :) He loves the conservatory and loves all the attention hes getting. He actually jumped up on the roof yesterday which isn't good. Gonna havta keep an eye on him n possibly get him a harness from now on

Aaaaand, I got a contract with ASDA :) I work Thursday Friday and do Wed as overtime and 1 Saturday a month. S'allll good. Deans got an Occupational Health app on the 27th too so hopefully he might be back on nights soon too!

And finally, my birthday soon! woop :D We're having a lil BBQ next Saturday, then the following Tuesday is my birthday and me n dean are hopefully gonna see Transformers! Theeeeen on the Thursday we love for.. dun dundun duuuunnn SONISPHERE. Yahooo. Yeps we got our tickets :)

S'gonna be good I can't wait.

Sonisphere 2010

Sonisphere was awesommmme :) ♥

Had an amazing time and saw some great bands, unfortunately though pretty much every band I saw cut out major hits :/

Bands: sylosis, turisas, europe, alice cooper, soulfly, fear factory, apocalyptica, lacuna coil, papa roach, tim minchin, placebo, rammstein, cky, the fab beatles, dir en grey, skindred, slayer, alice in chains, pendulum, iron maiden

So yeah, This year Sonisphere summed up- lots of drink, lots of shisha, lots of good music and lots of chillaxing. T'was allll goooood :)

Deans 21st Party, Mr Snowman & other stuff

Well, Deans 21st is now over, much to my dismay! Had a really good weekend its a shame it has to end lol

On Friday 15th, we went to the cinema and watched Book of Eli! Very much recommended :) I love Denzel Washington anyway, hes an amazing actor, one of my favourites thats for sure.

Then on Saturday 16th was Deans birthday party :) It went really well! Me and my mum made the buffet which turned out nice, although no1 ate any of my homemade cakes but I think thats cause they were too sickly chocolatey haha thats what I like to think anyway :P

LOADS of people turned up as well, alot more than expected! haha, it was good though :) Dean was originally against having the little party and going out, but afterwards he thanked me for arranging it because he enjoyed seeing everyone ^_^

Unfortunately Deans xbox died that night but he's sending it off to get fixed so its not all bad, other than that and there not being many seats everything was perfect haha

I've decided when I move out I'll probably have a party every month! lmao Any excuse :P

In regards to the problems with some people on his actual birthday night out, I've spoke to a few people and they've apologised for fucking him off like they did, so thats good. Dean wasn't majorly bothered just disappointed, so its all been forgotten about now anyways. The main thing is he had a good weekend and thats all that matters :)

So yeah.. heres some photos from the night. I've just realised considering its Deans birthday, there arent many photos of him! haha

I'm really sorry the blog is taking ages to load now because its so image heavy! I'll make the upload size smaller

Hilda, Deans Nin, Deans Mum & my Mum. Just a photo to show off the room :)


This was the buffet :)


Dean blowing out his candles on the cake lol


Dean & Ste


Andy, Sean & Bev

Claire, Sean & Lew


Me handing out champagne :P


Leah & Ste

Haha, sorry I know theres loads of photos again. I should really stop this before the blog comes to a complete stand still! lol

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I entered mine & Deans snowman into the Sonisphere Festival competition, and we were one of the runners up!! :D

http://uk.sonispherefestivals.com/2010/01/sonisphere-snowman-competition-winner-revealed/

Deans a bit bummed that he didn't get credit for it :S I did tell them it was by him too but for some reason they just put my name lol

I'm proud anyway :) I wish we'd won free tickets to Soni though! haha

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And now for the not so good part of the blog post :/..

Yesterday I went to the Doctors with Dean about the problems hes been having, and the doc said he is going to be referred to a gastroenterologist for further investigation because it seems too bad to be IBS :(

I'm so confused with how I'm feeling, its really upsetting me. I'm happy its possibly not IBS, because that means they might be able to fix it (theres no real cure for IBS), but then thats means its something worse than IBS.. so I'm not happy at all.

I just want him to be better as soon as possible :( To me, he's always been the strongest and toughest person I know, hes my everything, and to know something is wrong with him is terrifying. I try to be strong and act as if I'm not really worried, and I don't really talk to him about it unless he says something, but deep down I think he knows I'm really worried. He hides his symptoms from me and everyone else so we don't worry too much, but its at the point now where you can tell something is wrong.

I just hope hes better soon, hes been signed out of work for 4 weeks so hopefully the rest will help whilst he gets the tests. I love him more than anything in the world, and even when hes feelings at his worst, he will still try and look after me its so cute :) I wish I could be there to help him and look after him, but I know I can't and would probably just be in the way. Worst thing in the world is feeling awful but trying to act normal for other peoples sakes.

I know he doesn't read my blogs, so it doesnt matter that I've said stuff on here which I would usually hide. If for some strange reason he does read this which is highly unlikely, its nothing he didn't already know.

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Now I just wanna give a little explanation about this blog, so that people are clearer on it and so that if Dean *does* read this, he will also know.

Regardless of what anyone might tell me, as far as im concerned my memory is deteriorating. Anyone who knows me properly will know how forgetful I am, I do believe I have some sort of memory disfunction where my brain doesn't store memories properly. I'll probably go to the doctors one day.. but ironically I always forget to make an appointment, plus to be quite honest I'd feel stupid going in and saying 'hi, i forget stuff'.. yeah.. so do billions of other people around the world.

I hate it when people try and tell me its a normal thing or it 'runs in the family' or 'oh yeahhh i'm the same', everyone forgets what they've eaten for dinner, everyone forgets what day it is etc etc, but this is different, I don't remember anything, and i dont think its normal. I'm worried I will have to argue with the doctor that something is wrong with me :/

Anyway, this blog is really just my way of.. i dunno.. keeping a log of my life, a diary. I'm not posting this just so that everyone knows my life, it sounds silly but I'm posting this so that in months or even years to come, I remember whats happened.

In 2009 I didn't post anything between January and September, I don't know why I didn't.. I have pretty much no memories from that time, other than things that were logged through photographs. You gonna tell me thats normal too? Maybe it is, I dunno.

So yeah.. I mean it is good when people read this I post links on my fb status etc. But really this is partly for people to know me and whats happening in my life, but mainly for me to know me and whats happened in my life... if that makes sense haha.

I'm tired now, I should really go to bed, been typing alot and only just realised lol. I'm in uni in the morning and I'm not in the mood :( Also my dreads were taken out today and my hairs a mess so gotta wash it in the morning.

Things I can't wait for...

- Bed time ina min! lol
- Dominican Republic in Aug! - 2weeks n its already booked yaaay
- Sonisphere in Aug! - Be a change from Dload, its gonna be awesome! Finally I will get to be at a festival with MORE THAN 1 OTHER GIRL! Sausage fests are good, but I need people to talk to! haha =D
- Mine & Deans 5 year Anniversary! - I remember our 5month anniv like it was yday. Me n Leah wer sitting on Deans bed n we worked it out lol Then we ate Deans old chip barm i think. :P
- Roller Disco soon! - Woooo Helens Party is gonna rule, I'm gonna get loads of pics.. Ill look fab! =D
- Being made redundant in April! - Woooo no more poopy work lmao
- The weekend - my first days off in what seems like months!
- Summer - I'm gonna make this one a Summer to remember ^_^ I wanna go camping, or on another boat trip! lol

Anywho, Bleh, time for bed now lolz